The Waiting Walk
The Waiting Walk — This podcast is about opening the pages of real fertility journeys — raw, honest, and hopeful. Each episode feels like a diary read out loud, where we walk gently together through the waiting season.
Plus, you’ll hear the voices of other women, opening up about their own waiting walks.
Until next time-breathe, walk gently, and hold onto hope. 💛
The Waiting Walk
Diary Entry Six: July is Here-And So is My Fear
In this raw and honest episode, I share the emotional rollercoaster of being present in the moment-feeling fear, uncertainty, and yet holding on to hope. Join me as I navigate the complex feeling that come with waiting and believing in the possibility of a new beginning.
You don’t have to walk this alone. Until next time-breathe, walk gently, and hold onto hope!
Hey, it's Jocelyn. Welcome back to the waiting walk. We made it to July. And if you've been following my countdown, then you already know what this month holds for us. Even if I don't say it directly. There's a heaviness to today. But also a softness I didn't expect. So this episode is me holding both. I'm recording this right now in the room we started to plan for. There's an alphabet rug with a bear on it. Because my husband and I call each other bear. There are New York Giants baby books sitting on a shelf. Not because we've arrived at the dream, but because we dare to start imagining it. This room is quiet right now, but it's also full. Full of love. Full of tiny hopes. Full of the version of us that chose to believe. Even before anything was certain. Today I woke up with this feeling in my chest. Not quite panic, but not peace either. It's the kind of tension that says something big might be coming. Or maybe nothing at all. And that's the wild thing about this journey. We do so much, we give so much, we wait for so long. And then it all comes down to the one moment we can't control. But today, I'm going to try my hardest to hold on to hope of what I might learn tomorrow. I'm trying to still ground myself this morning. And I know that I have to keep showing up for myself. I know I did a great job. I rested. I laughed. I cried. I had to slow down. And I had to let go of old habits. But I'm so proud of myself that I created new space. And even if we don't get the result, I'm hoping for this new month still gets to be mine. I get to walk into July with my head up because I didn't quit on myself. I didn't numb it out. I stayed present. And that's something I never used to give myself credit for. I used to think that strength meant powering through. Now I know strength is surrender. Strength is sitting still. Strength is breathing deeply on the eve of the unknown. Yeah, I'm nervous. I'm very emotional right now. I'm not sure if these tears are because I'm so scared of what tomorrow will hold. Or because I think, gosh, I don't know. But I do know no matter what happens next, I'm still worthy. I'm still whole. I'm still Jocelyn. If you're in the middle of this walk, I see you. Until next time. Breathe. Walk gently and hold on to hope. This is the waiting walk.