The Waiting Walk
The Waiting Walk — This podcast is about opening the pages of real fertility journeys — raw, honest, and hopeful. Each episode feels like a diary read out loud, where we walk gently together through the waiting season.
Plus, you’ll hear the voices of other women, opening up about their own waiting walks.
Until next time-breathe, walk gently, and hold onto hope. 💛
The Waiting Walk
Diary Entry Three: Whiskey, Acupuncture, and Learning to Let Go
In this episode, I talk about the quiet sacrifices that come with another round of IUI-like giving up the little routines that made life feel normal. From missing happy hour with my husband, to trying fertility acupuncture for the first time. This is about slowing down, tuning in, and making space for healing. If you’re in the middle of waiting, hoping, or just trying to breathe through it-I see you. You’re not alone.
Until next time-breathe, walk gently, and hold onto hope!
Hey, welcome back to the Waiting Walk, a podcast about my IUI journey and maybe yours too. This episode is about letting go of old rhythms and reaching for something new, about routines I've loved and the small sacrifices that hit a little harder than expected. Let's start here. I miss happy hour with my husband. Whiskey while we cook? That's our thing. We talk, laugh, pour a little glass, and just be together. It's our unwind time, our normal. But starting this new IUI round meant pressing pause on that part of our routine. And honestly, the first few days were rough. I told my husband how I was feeling, missing our rhythm, missing us. And in the most loving, honest way, he looked at me and said, Babe, it's not the drink. You just don't like being told you can't have something. He smiled and added, I could tell you to stop eating chocolate and suddenly you'd need chocolate. I laughed because he knows me. He really knows me, and that helped. So instead of whiskey this week, I tried something else. Something new. My sister-in-law and nieces gifted me a spa appointment at CNY, and I chose to try fertility acupuncture. When I arrived, the specialist asked all the things. How's your sleep? How many IUIs have you done? What is your test to find out if you're pregnant? Then she said, Can I see your tongue? And guys, if you know me, you know I'm always asking for gum. So, of course, I had gum in my mouth, and instead of panicking, I just tucked it under my tongue and opened wide, like, let's do this. She looked at my tongue and told me I eat way too many cold foods. No more ice cream, she said. Woof, that hit hard. After placing the needles, she tucked a blanket over my lower half and turned on a heater. She dimmed the lights, ocean sounds filled the room. Relax, she said. But relaxing wasn't easy. My mind was racing, I couldn't turn off the noise, the thoughts, the worry, the waiting. Then I said to myself, Jocelyn, if you want to receive this, you have to be here. So I tried. I focused on the music, I focused on my breath, and then I passed out. Snored myself awake, actually. It was hilarious and it was healing. That quiet moment in a dim room under a heater, surrounded by ocean waves, reminded me. This journey will ask us to give up things. But sometimes what we're really being asked to do is to let something else in. For me, it's still hard. Giving up our old routines, trying new ones, sitting in silence when I'd rather be buzzing around, jumping around, and doing all the things. But this IUI round is asking me to tune in, not just to the doctor's orders or the hormone levels, but to tune in to me. And I'm trying. If you're in that same space, letting go, missing old comforts, trying to find something new, something grounding, I see you. Thanks for walking with me today. If you're still in the wait, still holding on, you're not alone. Until next time, breathe, walk gently, and hold on to hope. This is the waiting walk.